"The Awakening "
When I was little I can recall going to Haines Point in Washington DC and seeing large body parts sticking up out of the ground. I remember thinking how odd it was, but at that age it was merely a playground.
Recently for some reason I have found myself wondering about the "Giant" emerging from the ground. I've been studying many photo's especially of his face wondering if it's a look of relief or anguish? Is he gasping for air after emerging from his tomb? Or is he grieving for having been "awaken from it?"
Sometimes this is how I feel in my walk with Christ. A mixture of relief and sometimes anguish. Relief from the sentence of death that would keep me locked forever in my tomb. A place of desolation and an emptiness so profound as to cause one to loose their mind. And yet there are times when I feel anguish or rather a sorrow deep within. Not because I regret my choice, but because the choice causes me to continuously examine myself, "and it ain't all pretty."
God has "awaken" me. Ignorance is no longer a valid defense for my actions. I am accountable and accountability is hard. The "walk" is hard.
There are days when like the giant I find myself gasping for air. Suffocating under a blanket of guilt so intense for things I have done that I know grieve God, the tomb almost seems like a welcome refuge. I could hide there. It is dark. But I know that there are no secrets from God. No place so dark that His light cannot find me.
As always when I run he comes for me. He lays hold of my thoughts and "lifts the blanket". I recoil in shame, but He says "No need." "Remember" he says, "it is done".
